What is with people today?
People seem to consider direct contact too much for them. Prudes!
Never have I felt so left down, so embarrassed at my own personality than those last few days..
Fist, an old friend of mine who used to be in my class when I was twelve, arrives on facebook. we talk and everything and then, as a friend, I ask his number so as to keep contact because I am so barely on the internet. He throws me away like an old sock, as if I had wanted to make a move on him or something.
And then, today! same thing all over again, the most embarassing phone encounter of my existence! One thing is sure, I won't be calling THAT guy again, too uptight to act normal and hangs up after two minutes! Stupid, stupid.
I feel like crying because I am not used to such coldness, in Helsinki everything was much smoother, much easier. I've hit a wall, reality of french morality. This wall was too hard, I can't get back up...
No more, No more. Cannot forget the shame of those moments where I should have just not stepped into the light like this. The cold water disillusioned all my old friendship ideals..
People seem to consider direct contact too much for them. Prudes!
Never have I felt so left down, so embarrassed at my own personality than those last few days..
Fist, an old friend of mine who used to be in my class when I was twelve, arrives on facebook. we talk and everything and then, as a friend, I ask his number so as to keep contact because I am so barely on the internet. He throws me away like an old sock, as if I had wanted to make a move on him or something.
And then, today! same thing all over again, the most embarassing phone encounter of my existence! One thing is sure, I won't be calling THAT guy again, too uptight to act normal and hangs up after two minutes! Stupid, stupid.
I feel like crying because I am not used to such coldness, in Helsinki everything was much smoother, much easier. I've hit a wall, reality of french morality. This wall was too hard, I can't get back up...
No more, No more. Cannot forget the shame of those moments where I should have just not stepped into the light like this. The cold water disillusioned all my old friendship ideals..
